I am a disciple of Christ, but it wasn’t always like this. I used to be a very different person than I am now.
What happened? I started taking my relationship with Christ seriously just after my freshman year of high school. Prior to this, I was a little punk. I thought I was the sexiest, most macho guy on the planet. I figured I was capable of getting just about any girl, and when I wasn’t fantasizing about myself or showing out with the guys I was acting the whole ‘Christian’ role to my teachers and those who didn’t really know me. I was a bonafide hypocrite, like a priest preparing his next sermon at a strip club.
Then all of a sudden, during my freshman year, God let me stumble into a terrible, unhealthy relationship. My true colors came out, and my reputation got destroyed as a result of it. I hit rock bottom, and it was the best thing that ever happened to me. In pursuit of myself, I eventually realized that all the pleasures this world seemed to offer do not truly satisfy my deepest needs (otherwise, why would I always have to have more?) . Even pursuits of ‘world peace’ and striving to be a good person weren’t working at all. During this period I felt the sin in my life literally separating me from the God I thought I had all figured out. I just couldn’t do it anymore.
I decided to surrender my life to Jesus. I got out of the relationship, apologized to all the people I could about my two-faced attitude, and let the only thing that saves take over my life: God’s grace. Grace that is wholly undeserved. Grace manifest in the act of one, perfect Man sacrificing Himself for me and rising again three days later.
Ever since, my life has never been the same. I can’t get this guy named Jesus out of my head. I know God like I know a relative, but better. Because of God’s love for me, I know how to truly love other people. And only by the grace of the God who adopted me into His family, I can genuinely put others’ needs before my own. Don’t misunderstand me, I definitely still make mistakes every day. However, life’s completely different when you have the Holy Spirit inside you, guiding you along the way. Life’s different when you know in your heart that the God of the universe unconditionally loves you when you don’t deserve it. With that said, my life is not about me anymore. It’s all about Jesus Christ.